Motherhood - Reader Discretion Advised: Contains sappiness

I thought today about blogging (okay ranting) about dishwashers (yes I could go on and on - I just don't get why some people don't group the cutlery together in the basket in the dishwasher.  It takes like, oh a nano second to place a spoon in the basket beside another spoon and so on).  And then I thought about regaling you with tales about cupcake decorating (which is tougher than I imagined.  Those cupcake girls, or whoever they are, make it look easy). But no, I want to talk about Motherhood.

I still consider myself a "new" mom even though my boy is one year old.  I guess because I still find myself marvelling at this little person who has come to join me in my life.  I have vowed to cherish every moment, because as I am learning, it goes by quickly.  I mean, had I known that the chest cuddles phase when they are newborn didn't last that long, I think I would have appreciated it more.  And now that will never happen again.  I will never have that tiny boy wrapped up in a blanket on my chest like that. But I do have the present.  And I just drink up every moment.

My boy was crying not too long ago this evening and really just needed a cuddle.  So I brought him into my darkened bedroom, sat down on my bed and just held him, with his back to my chest, stroking his hair.  I was amazed at how quickly he fell back to sleep, and even though there are many things I had yet to do, I was not ready to give him up to his crib again.  I just wanted to enjoy my time with him.  Smelling his hair, hearing him breathe, feeling his warmth. 

It's so easy to get caught up in what will happen tomorrow, or preparing for the future that we forget to just stop and really soak in the now.  Really live the moment.  You just never know when things might change in your world so I find myself just valuing what I have right now.  Things are less than ideal in my world but I say "Things can always get worse".  Not the positive thinking mantra most people live by, but it helps me to appreciate what I have now.  And what I have now is a wonderful boy and loving family.  And I intend to live day by day, and just soak up those beautiful moments that make up the greater picture of my life. I don't want to look back when my son is grown and think it was all a blur. No, I will have a collage of wonderful pictures in my heart and mind.

If you have read this far without gagging, I applaud you.  And thank you.

Well those are my bits and pieces from my cupboards and drawers.  Till next time...

~M~